On the wagon

No, I don’t have an alcohol problem, I’m back on the wagon for diet. Before the holidays I just totally let my diet go, stopped caring. It wasn’t long before I hit 265 again. I started off the holidays eating too much but working out a fair bit. They wrapped up with me eating a more sane amount but not working out, which broght me in at 264.5 Tuesday.
The holiday did give me the time to think about what is important in my workouts and drilled home to me that it is time to put up or shut up and move to a healthier weight. These last few days I have begun and it has been difficult at times. First, I still have left over junk food from the holidays and to me, just throwing away a pound of jelly beans that someone was nice enough to sneak into my luggage is not an option. so I’m probably sabotaging myself there a little.
I’ve been doing my best to follow the 7 habits of effective dieting from t-nation (I don’t have the link handy but will try to get it later. I do allow myself some carbs, which is against the diet but I try to stay away from straight sugar. I find I crave it bad at 12, 5 and 9 pm, no idea why those times but that seems to be the case and it doesn’t seem waiting it out does a whole lot of good for me
I am also attempting a little portion control. One of my greatest problems in the past has been amount per sitting. I’m eating often now so I am trying to limit the amount. it was hard last evening to not automatically make myself two sandwiches for dinner. It’s also weird to not be “full” when I finish eating. I’m not hungry mind you. I just don’t have the feeling my stomach is packed, that sensation usually sent me to the pantry to find more. I have been hungry a few times, for a half an hour or so. it’s no big deal, it’s not like i’m depriving myself, I’m just trying to let the clock tell me when to eat for a while rather than my over indulged gut.
In the last few days I have quickly dropped 3 pounds. This, I believe is just an initial reaction by my body that hasn’t yet learned to cope with it’s new lot in life. I don’t expect to keep it up. I do think the first ten pounds will come quickly, then the work will begin. I’m shooting for 235 here.