Off Night

Definitly had an off night. I was kinda looking forward to going. Once I hit a few heavyish deads I just didn’t want to be there anymore. I couldn’t focus at all. I couldn’t get my head into it. I tried to work on my front squat form but was quickly frustrated. I especially got tired of squat rack curl boy looking at me with a dazed and confused look while I did this.
I did have some good luck with the plate pinch. I was able to pinch three tens for about a ten count three or so times. at ten they would explode out of my hand like I had hidden a firecracker in them. Didn’t even bother with finger curls. I just was not focused at all.

For some reason the question of why I lift weights kept running through my head. The immediate answer was, and has been, because I like to. Tonight it was not enough. About a year ago I decided that the thing for me was to be a powerlifter. I was quickly disillusioned with this. Since then I have experimented with a few different things but not really found myself truly enamoured to any of them. I feel like I need to pick a direction so i can at least focus my workouts.

I’m sure this will come up again. This is pretty typical me.